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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Tue Feb 20, 2018 5:42 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Nude - no underwear
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 4-5 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 16 Jun 2016
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hey Lorenzo
Sorry to hear about current situation event if, as you say, that better that way.
Time will tell, i just hope your husband was not also the one to keep you in the good path.....


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Tue May 15, 2018 7:42 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Hello again.
After I have been away for quite a while, I decided to give it another go and test myself on going natural once more.
I still „suffer“ from porn induced erectile dysfunction. I had some few relapses in the past and only achieve longlasting, firm erections with the help of Sildenafil, mostly half a pill does the job satisfyingly well.
Yet I want to have that effect without taking any pills and therefor I suppose there is no other way than to go the full way of nofap and noporn.

My last orgasm and ejaculation was on Thursday, May 3rd when I masturbated before going to bed.
Today is Day 12. I have not touched myself other than necessary when taking a shower etc. I have not watched porn for a couple of weeks. I lost track on that, it might be 4 weeks.

I will update here once or twice a week or if something extraordinary happened.

Week 1:
Day 1-5: No horniness, no erections
Days 6-7: Increasing horniness, strong sleep boners, vivid sex dreams

Week 2:
Day 8-12: Flatline, lifeless penis, only mental and no physical horniness, no sleep boners or only very light ones, no sex dreams, balls are getting fuller and the pressure inside is getting more intense.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed May 16, 2018 6:46 am 
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Joined: Thu May 24, 2012 4:41 am
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Age: 49
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 40
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Precum Production: Little Precum (1-2 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 2
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Shorts or pajamas with no underwear
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 4-5 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 22 Jan 2018
Sex: Male
Welcome back, Lorenzo:

Congrats on making it to Day 12. It sounds like the first week brought great results but the second week has been a challenge. Hang in there and stay strong: you have proven you in the past that you have the strength and willpower to do so!

--NF


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Tue May 29, 2018 8:55 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Update:

For me the month of May consisted of AB phases and releases every 10 days.
I realize my longterm goal has got to be reached in a more drastic way.
So I decided to spent this summer walking the Camino de Santiago in Spain.
I have booked my flights and also started my preparations.

When I return I will be on day 76.

It will be a time without any sex, mb or porn due to the lack of privacy and boredom and due to exhaustion.
I hope my Camino will be somewhat cleansing and spiritual.

So I mentally started my Camino 3 days ago: I am planning and reading and exercising and preparing myself.

This time I will make it!

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed May 30, 2018 1:37 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Nude - no underwear
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 5-6 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 05 Mar 2017
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lorenzo wrote:
Update:

For me the month of May consisted of AB phases and releases every 10 days.
I realize my longterm goal has got to be reached in a more drastic way.
So I decided to spent this summer walking the Camino de Santiago in Spain.
I have booked my flights and also started my preparations.

When I return I will be on day 76.

It will be a time without any sex, mb or porn due to the lack of privacy and boredom and due to exhaustion.
I hope my Camino will be somewhat cleansing and spiritual.

So I mentally started my Camino 3 days ago: I am planning and reading and exercising and preparing myself.

This time I will make it!


Good luck, and enjoy!!


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sat Jun 02, 2018 5:17 pm 
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Thanks AGT, I am already excited although I have got 5 more weeks to go..

As for AB: I am 7 days in, woke with MW -surprisingly- and I am superhorny. Calls for a cold shower and a busy day...

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Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sun Jun 03, 2018 3:55 pm 
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Location: Germany
Age: 38
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 8

Difficult day yesterday. Ended up edging myself multiple times. Lots of gluey precum.. The problem is: edging feels so good you keep on doing it again and again (if you have got the time and being alone) That takes your focus away from the things you originally wanted or had to do.. Managed to stop and went to bed early.. Strangely no blue balls this time..

Today I am still horny but not as bad as yesterday. Main focus today: Gym -without sauna!!!!- and preparing on my Camino next month.

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A: MB 4 SX 4
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Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

2017: MB 35 / HF 3 / Sex 12
Sept 2000-2016: lots of MB to internet porn (almost daily)
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Mon Jun 04, 2018 3:09 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 9

After the struggles I had yesterday and the day before, luckily I am back to normal..
It really does seem to work:

Leave the house
Gym
Long phone calls to friends and family
Planning my trip and do errands to get my equipment
Cleaning the house
Go to bed early if tired
Please don‘t laugh now: reading the bible and pray for help (sounds perhaps a little desperate but it seems to be working to give me more willpower)

I know it is just the first 3 weeks then it will get easier..

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Last porn viewing: 8/1
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed Jun 06, 2018 1:30 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 10

Horny, but controllably horny - if that makes sense.

My goal is to be able to enjoy being horny without the impulse of touching myself automatically.
Work, the gym and seeing some friends afterwork keeps me busy.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Thu Jun 07, 2018 5:07 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 12

Feeling calm, not unbearably horny, but awake and active.
No desire to touch or stimulate myself whatsoever. No desire to watch porn either.
Preparing my journey keeps me busy besides work, meeting friends and spending my time outside works as well.
Nights are dreamless and uneventful.

I am considering to ask AGT to remove my access to the Members Private Forum as in the past the contents there used to interfere with my AB Noporn goals.

I am glad I have made it to day 12 and I want to go much much further.

Have a nice day everyone.

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Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Fri Jun 08, 2018 10:22 pm 
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 13 - these days are all about precaution

I asked AGT to remove me from the MPF and he did. I feel sort of relieved. Thank you, you really helped.. To withstand visual arousal I have to avoid all sorts of triggers from the past. The MPF was one trigger.

Yesterday I deleted my profile on Soundcloud. The amount of sexual audios there used to make me cheat on myself while abing from porn in the past. So, ‚No’ to Soundcloud.

The overall age restriction on my electronic devices is still active and works very well.

Also I keep the mouse for my iMac at work and cannot use my computer anymore. I do not need it anyways..

Another old trigger was the gym sauna after my workout. Problem: To much sex going on there, gays masturbating in front of each other. My new trick: Straight after I have finished my workout I order my protein shake at the counter and tell them to prepare it while I quickly have a shower and get dressed. It would be awkward to keep them waiting then for half an hour now. Instead I hurry up and in about 8 minutes I am back, clean and dressed ready to receive my freshly mixed shake.
Perhaps a little stupid but it prevents me from giving in to the sudden desire to sneak into the steam sauna.

Physically Day 13 is uneventful as the night before. But I feel fine, calm and relaxed but active and awake.

I am looking forward to flying to Spain and starting the Camino de Santiago. ‚Only’ 27 days to wait...

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Last cigarette: 6/1

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sat Jun 09, 2018 4:52 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 14

2 weeks. Had a good night sleep, uneventful and without interruption- today I am calm, awake and all but lazy..
Still, it is Saturday and I sort of miss the company of someone close, like my husband for instance. Being away from family usually does not bother me at all..
Gym, housecleaning, some paper work are possible options to fill the day with..
Tomorrow I will go on a hike to test my shoes, equipment and stamina.

Physically no horniness, no boners, just a big nothing.. Strange..

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Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Mon Jun 11, 2018 2:50 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 15

Today I went hiking to test my boots and gear. I managed 25 kms and I begin to grasp what a challenge lies ahead of me in Spain. But to be honest: I feel good now, tired, my feet feel a bit overused but I seized the day.. :)

Mentally I realize I must have withdrawal symptoms from porn. It has been 6 days now without ANY form of sexual arousal, neighter visual, audible nor physical. I feel sort of sad without any particular reason and I want to be alone. Even being in the forest today did not make me as happy as it usually does.

But I am glad I did something sensible today.

Physically I must admit I am in a flatline. Nights are uneventful. I have not had a single erection for 6 days. I am not particularly horny but I look at people and find many of them attractive. As soon as I realize that I tell myself to drop the thought and distract myself immediately.

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Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Tue Jun 12, 2018 4:27 am 
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Age: 38
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Day 16 No O
7 days completely clean

Now it has been one week with no stimulation whatsoever. No erection for 7 days.
To deny orgasm is nothing compared to that. My brain seems to have broken down in terms of chemistry.
I feel permanently sad, want to be alone, want the day to be over soon. There is hardly anything that pleases me. I am unimpressed by whatever or whoever..

I know that must be the withdrawal from dopamine, my level of dopamine crashes until it goes up again naturally. I just have to admit it is tough and no fun.

Physically the same as yesterday. Flatline. No libido, no erection.

When I notice attractive men throughout the day, I look the other way and don‘t indulge in any erotic thought. ‚Drop the thought‘ is a good advice I learned from Buddhism..

Workout was superb today, my endurance and willpower were the best :)

Tonight I will conclude the day with an episode of Game of Thrones.. I am at season 5 and to watch that series keeps me entertained in difficult times..

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A: MB 4 SX 4
S: 0

Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

2017: MB 35 / HF 3 / Sex 12
Sept 2000-2016: lots of MB to internet porn (almost daily)
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed Jun 13, 2018 5:51 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
8 days clean

I have decided to change my counter to fit the actual situation better.

Just like a drug addict I have been clean for 8 days now. And I am slowly getting stronger to resist temptation. It seems to be everywhere. And I turn the other way, or at least my head is.. :)

Feeling better today, productive and full of energy.

One thing has to be cleared still: I guess my last O was 8 days ago, not 17 days ago.
Last week on Monday I went to bed horny. I was on day 9 and I wanted an anal O. It was late, I was very tired and half asleep I put my Aneros inside me. I dozed a bit and after a while while I was half asleep the Aneros did it’s magic. I lay naked on my belly and was enjoying the pleasures until I had an intense prostate orgasm. Usually when that happens it is not a penile orgasm so there is no ejaculation. This time for the first time really I felt I was cumming both from behind/ inside and out of my penis. I felt as if someone had opened the water tap and I felt I was flooding/ peeing my bed and I could not help it.
The orgasm was beyond my control and very intense but I was too tired to check if I had ejaculated. I was half asleep anyways the whole time. So I slept.
The next morning I checked the mattress for any spots but I could not find any. So I concluded there was no ejaculation.
But today I was removing the sheets for the laundry and I saw a big round spot with yellowish edges just where I lay when I orgasmed that night. The evidence was clear.
So I have to change my counter.

But it is for the best. I had been cheating on myself. I always looked at AB as if it only meant not to have an O. Wrong. No stimulation whatsoever. Neighter pixels, audios, literature, fantasies.. No MB. No nipple stimulation.

That is why I call it: to be clean.

Those past 8 days have been tough and there is a long way to go. But for once I will make it.
One day at a time. Good things come to those who can wait.

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A: MB 4 SX 4
S: 0

Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

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Sept 2000-2016: lots of MB to internet porn (almost daily)
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Thu Jun 14, 2018 3:31 am 
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
9 days clean

Since I have committed myself fully to AB with all denial and all consequences I feel relieved but at the same time weak and weary.. My achievement is small and feels like a thin coat of ice on a lake. I am afraid it might rip or break..
So I go one day at a time. But this time I only want the days to get by and be safe. This time my achievement seems frail and very precious to me..

Seductive situations for instance in the gym shower room happen on a regular base -there are many gay men there and they are used to make out with others there- but each time I notice somebody’s glances or actions -mostly on themselves- I look the other way and hurry up to get out of that situation as fast as I can. And it is starting to seem disgusting to me. And each time I get more willpower and it gets easier each time to say no. (In my thoughts that is, of course I do not say anything to those guys)..

When erotic thoughts cross my mind I immediately keep telling myself to drop the thought. And it works.

Physically no significant changes. Still flatline, no libido. But a few nighttime boners I was aware of last night. I dreamt vividly I wanted to get back together with my husband and knew that in my life, I would only truely love him. Woke up and felt strangely good about the dream.. Weird..

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Last MB: 8/27
Last porn viewing: 8/1
Last cigarette: 6/1

2017: MB 35 / HF 3 / Sex 12
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Thu Jun 14, 2018 10:59 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
10 days clean

Still flatline, no libido, no boners, still the feeling of being a bit ‚down‘.
Night was uneventful.
I am still intensely training myself to drop erotic thoughts as soon as they appear. And they disappear.

The days seem to go by slowly. And each night I am glad I have made it another day.

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Last MB: 8/27
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Fri Jun 15, 2018 12:38 pm 
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Age: 49
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 40
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Precum Production: Little Precum (1-2 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 2
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Shorts or pajamas with no underwear
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 4-5 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 22 Jan 2018
Sex: Male
L--

Congrats on achieving 10 days clean! I admire your persistence, especially considering the flatline and down feelings that you are experiencing. You had made progress in the past, but seem to have faced the same problem I have in trying to become free from porn: "cheating", i.e., sneaking peeks and entertaining erotic thoughts.

Now you have gone to the next step: removing yourself from situations and dismissing erotic thoughts. I would imagine that your mind/body/spirit are starting to reset, but it is a long journey and the first phases of the reset may not feel too "up." But consider how much progress you made in the past year and a half removing porn from you life and how slow that reset must have felt at times. This next step towards being "clean" is even bigger, and so is bound to take time. Knowing this, of course, doesn't make it any easier, but helps me as I, like you, seek to move towards getting "clean".

All the best!
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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sat Jun 16, 2018 3:01 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
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Hey NF, thank you so much for your support- that means a lot to me, especially because you rather nailed it with your resumé.. It is hard and slow and takes forever it seems..

11 days clean

Lately I tend to wake up around 2 or 3 am and then I lie awake at least for an hour. I get up at 6 and now after 5 working days and 3 interrupted nights I am absolutely knackered tonight.
Last night I felt another sleep boner, apart from that there were no other events.

Flatline. No libido.

Gym workout was superb again though. Tomorrow I will be on a bike tour.
But as for tonight: supper, GoT and if I need some cheering up I take my headphones and listen to Donna Summer disco tracks- for me disco music has always been THE good mood guarantee to this very day.

But as for now: Thank God it‘s Friday ;)

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sun Jun 17, 2018 5:31 am 
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Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
12 days clean

Still flatlining and no libido throughout the day but erotic dreams at night and erections. I can tell the healing process has begun. I avoid any temptation or erotic thought and train myself with the same mantra ‚drop the thought‘ all over again. It works and enhances discipline. It takes 3-4 weeks for an addiction to stop, at least to overcome the most critical phase. I am almost at 2 weeks now.

I was on a bike tour today and went 57 kms. Now I am tired but very content. Around 10 pm I go to sleep and call it a day...

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Mon Jun 18, 2018 3:32 am 
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Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
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If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
13 days clean

Flatline, zero libido, uneventful night.
Gym workout was great. Otherwise I am just glad today is almost over, my mood is at a low point.
At the same time I am more determined than ever to finally stay ‚clean‘. These 13 days are an important achievement for me because they are 13 days of true AB without cheating myself, without porn, erotic thoughts and not even cigarettes or alcohol.
Still 18 days until I can leave here and fly to Spain. I have got to be patient.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Tue Jun 19, 2018 5:31 am 
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If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
14 days clean - 2 weeks in my reboot

Still flatlining, no libido, no erections, uneventful night. I tend to wake up around 3 am and lie awake for about an hour lately.. Might be part of the withdrawal from dopamine..
I will definitely go on, I can feel my body is doing something downstairs.. it feels icy in my loins and strange.. my pecker is small and shriveled and only good for taking a pee.

Today I have kept myself busy with completing my gear for my Camino as well as with watching another episode of GoT. I go to sleep at 10 pm and another day will be over.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed Jun 20, 2018 4:33 am 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 5
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
15 days clean

Still in a flatline. No libido, but being so calm, almost asexual, is a relief in itself.
Last night I noticed a few erections, it seems my body is trying to fill out the vessels as if it was sort of a maintenance program. All this happened rather technically, no libido as I said.

Workout was fine again today and all my strategies to change my old habits in doing and thinking still work well too and save me from failing.

One thing I have to mention: The amount of reports and posts about MB and edging lately here in this forum read as if their authors enjoyed sharing their habits with others quite a bit. No offense, I have done it myself many times. But for a website that is supposed to encourage you to go on with NoFap and NoPorn, MB has become THE main topic here lately. A bit too much for my taste considering my current situation. To each his own. But as long as I am committed to true AB I will skip reading other logs as they want (and mean) something different than mine does now.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Wed Jun 20, 2018 2:06 pm 
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Age: 49
Number of wet dreams you've experienced: 6
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Precum Production: Lots of Precum (more than 4 drops before ejaculation)
Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 10
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - Had a wet dream, but never woke up to see the time.
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 07 Jun 2017
Sex: Male
No problem L. I am actually torn between edging for vesicle training and total ab. I admire your valient efforts.


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Thu Jun 21, 2018 5:04 am 
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Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
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If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
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Yes revrcs, either way it may take your sexuality to a next level or provide new experiences.

I on the contrary am not looking for sexual kicks because searching these for years has brought me PIED in the first place. No, I just want to know what my body works like naturally when left alone.. Perhaps you can‘t imagine what it is like to be impotent while at the same time your brain is hyperaroused. Normal sex is just impossible this way and you feel like a disabled half-man.

I am so sick of it that I am now fully committed to NoFap and NoPorn to get rid of PIED for good.


16 days clean

Still flatlining, uneventful night, no erections, no libido, again I did not sleep through and woke up around 3:30 am.
Still in the mood for cocooning, apart from work, gym and talking on the telephone I avoid people atm.

Two more weeks and then I am heading to Spain hiking myself sane .. lol

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Fri Jun 22, 2018 7:46 am 
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Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
17 days clean

Flatline, last night was uneventful but without intermission this time.
My mood is considerably getting better.
Today I have brought my mouse I usually keep at work to be safe from porn use on my computer. I deleted the file containing my porn collection without even opening the file. I just deleted it, shut the iMac down and tomorrow I am going to bring my wireless mouse back to the office. It had taken 15 months for me to finally delete everything. Today was the day.
Atm I have no libido and I feel calm and safe but in the past I always struggled and fell at last in the fourth week of AB. I have got to be prepared and get rid of possible traps.

So now I am tired and day 17 will be successfully over. Yeah. ;)

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Fri Jun 22, 2018 1:03 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 10
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: N/A - Had a wet dream, but never woke up to see the time.
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 07 Jun 2017
Sex: Male
Awesome. Keep fighting the good fight.


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sat Jun 23, 2018 4:08 am 
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Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Boxer briefs
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: yes
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 6-7 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 27 Aug 2018
Sex: Male
Thank you revrcs :)

18 days clean

Still experiencing a deep flatline - no libido. I am forcing myself to be a little productive like organizing drawers etc. Put my fleshlights and other mb toys in a bag and stored it in the cellar to be out of sight, locked away and hopefully forgotten one day as I am not planning on being a chronic mbtr again.
No sleep issues last night.
I am watching another episode of GoT tonight and I will be successfully done with another day.

Flatlining may make you feel numb and dull but tbh that is the best for me atm. Urges would be a challenge, being calm and feeling asexual is not.

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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sat Jun 23, 2018 2:06 pm 
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Average time to orgasm/ejaculation normally: 15
Underwear worn when going to sleep.: Shorts or pajamas with no underwear
Have you ever had a spontaneous ejaculation?: no
If you've had a wet dream before, when did it occur after falling asleep?: 5-6 hours
Date that you last had an orgasm/ejaculation.: 08 Mar 2014
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lorenzo wrote:
Adddition:

It has been a perfect Sunday - relaxing on our sunny balcony... (enjoying waves of horniness as they come and go)

I love the watch. What’s the make?


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 Post subject: Re: Lorenzo's Log
PostPosted: Sun Jun 24, 2018 2:52 am 
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Bigfalcon wrote:
lorenzo wrote:
Adddition:

It has been a perfect Sunday - relaxing on our sunny balcony... (enjoying waves of horniness as they come and go)

I love the watch. What’s the make?



It is a Doxa Sub 300 Sharkhunter. It is the first true divers watch ever produced. Originally released in 1967, Doxa produced this model amazingly authentic in 2017 as a limited 50th anniversary re-issue.

It is the only luxury item I have ever owned. I wear it every day and I have loved this watch from the first time I saw it.

Link removed. It points to a commercial site. Just Google it.

BTW: Robert Redford wore a Doxa Sub in the 1976 classic „3 Days of the Condor“. ;)


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