my log

[Mario777]

Day 53

One more week to go till 2 months.

[shadow_flare]

Dang man! Almost 2 months! Thanks for the boost in my drive to continue!

[Mario777]

Day 54

Nothing much to report. I keep going. Following 3 days will be easy, as I will be extremely busy.

[Mario777]

Day 55

Today I had a morning erection which was very hard and didn't fade that easy. Thats all.

[Mario777]

Day 56

I've been busy. It went pretty easy.

[Mario777]

day 57

Before I went to sleep yesturday I had strange feeling like I am going to orgasm if I touch it. It wasn't hard. has anyone experienced this?

[shadow_flare]

Yes I have actually, several times. I noticed this sensation a lot the week of day 33. However, oddly that feeling continued a few times despite me abstaining. For me though it usually happens sometimes after waking up... and rarely when going to bed.
I think it is a combination of the mind's yearning to have an orgasm and a lack of having one physically.
The first time I experienced that it felt like I was having a orgasm without touching my penis. Any subsequent times after that I kind of gave into masturbation, but I have since learned to ignore them.

[Mario777]

Day 58

Nothing much to add. Just holding till it turns day 60.

Yes I have actually, several times. I noticed this sensation a lot the week of day 33. However, oddly that feeling continued a few times despite me abstaining. For me though it usually happens sometimes after waking up... and rarely when going to bed.
I think it is a combination of the mind's yearning to have an orgasm and a lack of having one physically.
The first time I experienced that it felt like I was having a orgasm without touching my penis. Any subsequent times after that I kind of gave into masturbation, but I have since learned to ignore them.

It has got much easier to abstain, but it still requires huge amount of willpower at times when I need to concentrate on work. I wouldn't give in that easy anymore, but it is difficult to gather my thoughts and do things that I have to do. Still, many times I couldn't. Before I just MB'd and that was it, I was ready for work.
Another thing I have noticed is that when I am fresh and slept well, I have much stronger will power and I could ride on the top of this T-buzz, which makes me very energetic. When I get tired, it is much more difficult to concentrate on anything else than things I naturally like. Huh. Now thats difficult to explain, what is going on in my mind

[Mario777]

day 59

One day more.

[Mario777]

DAY 60

Yea, I did it!
I haven't had any WD yet, but 60 days is my record so far.
Next small goal is to reach 70 days.
And after that I would think of MB free March.

[Red-Shirt-Guy]

Congratulations on Day 60 man. Wish I could last at least 1/5 of that on a regular basis... May the Wet Dreams grant your wishes soon.

[Mario777]

day 61

Now the number in day counter is getting more impressive even to myself. My previous record was one month and week or two, can't remember exactly. I stopped and started MB conciously then. The reason was that I put too much fight into abstinence and couldn't function normal. Now I feel like my body adjusts to no MB. I've had periods when I didn't felt normal without MB'ing 2 or 3 times a day.
What has helped me a lot, is keeping a diary here. To express my feelings etc. One day was like a small step, small goal that seemed to be achievable. I thought during a day, what will I write here next day. So it went. Day by day. If I look back then second and third week were most difficult. Then it got easier. Gradually every week. I don't say day, because days can be very different. I had constant pain in my testecles but now it seem to subsidise.

Why I haven't had a WD? Good question. I think my sleeping habit do not allow much REM sleep. I haven't had any dreams for a longer period. Soon I will change my lifestyle due to work and I hope I can have longer sleeps with less interruptions at night. We'll see.
I don't worry much about WD anymore. 61 days without a MB is already a small achievement.

[Mario777]

Day 62

1/6 year abstained.

[Mario777]

Day 63

this day was easy.

[Mario777]

Day 65

It is getting even more easier.

[Mario777]

Day 66

More than half of March has passed. So I think MB free march is quite realistic.
9 weeks and 4 days so far.

[Mario777]

Day 67

I am here. Still here.

[zimzo]

Day 67

I am here. Still here.

your log is an inspiration! well done!

[Mario777]

day 68

Another day has passed. How did I achieve that? I set very small goals. Like to last till the end of the day. It has gotten much easier. Much much easier. BUT, it still requires willpower.
One day I will stop abstaining. I don't know when or how. This day will come I am sure. Until that time comes, I am willing to abstain. I feel I could go 90 days easy. or even 180 days. Another question is if it is practical. I have proved myself already. I could do 60 days anytime I wish.
There is still another point. Your body functioning changes during abstaining. First physically and then mentally.

Day 67

I am here. Still here.

your log is an inspiration! well done!

[iwantbehappy]

Wow

[Mario777]

Day 69

Numbers I am counting are turning really great. But this has come with price and effort.
First, I wasn't able to last longer than one week. Then I pushed myself to 2 weeks. And when I really devoted to abstaining with any price I was able to get to 3 weeks. Last time I abstained I went slightly over one month, which was a record for me. I started to feel changes in me and felt abstaining got easier. But I was spent already. Now I really got well over that point when it gets clearly easier to abstain. Still 69 days isn't too great number. But in some sense it is almost unbelievable. I think it is because I didn't set any fantastic result to achieve. I just went day by day without great expectations. Thats it.

[Mario777]

Day 70

There was an erotic dream in the morning but nething else happened. Uneventful day otherwise.

[Mario777]

Day 71

Thats cool. More than 70 days! I didn't MB anymore during this winter. Let's see how spring goes. Better if I don't make promises. 9 more days till the end of March.

[bluesky]

Hi Mario,
This is my first post in WDF , and after reading your diary , I'm so surprised that what you mentioned here is exactly what I 've struggled before and still . Congrats your phenomenal hard work , I know what you feel, because that's exactly happened to me at the abstinence day ( my personal record is 42 ) .

It's a real achievement , you deserve a credit for your onerous effort to struggle with your urges. I agree all your opinion in your post before, because that 's what i felt that day. The more you let that stuff go inside the brain, the harder you can resist it. Refrain from everything, it's easier said than done because when you slip a little ( like watching sexy girls, some sexual fantasy ) , it's harder and harder to control my own activity , my work and sooner or later, I will fail. It's look like " Hey , I 've done it OK 40 days , I got tempted , be proud of myself ", but it look like this masturbation addiction would never ends, so I have a little bit depress , because I don't know WHEN i will be free from it, that made me distraction about my goal, also induced me compromising myself to masturbate to relieve stress

so keep going,bro

[Mario777]

day 72

Is it day 72 already? Or am I reading someone else experience here? No, it's my 72 days!

Well, last day was difficult. It reminded me days from first month. But to see positive comments on my blog like log givese me enthusiasm to continue.

[Mario777]

day 73

[Mario777]

day 74

Last day was slightly more difficult than average, but otherwise uneventful.

[Mario777]

Day 75

Nice number.
It is strange but it has been getting more difficult again to abstain.

I will be away for a about 10 days. Silence here does not mean I have given up.
Next time I will post it will be day 84. At least I hope. But I will post whether it is day 84 or not.

[Mario777]

Day 84

I have been pretty busy recently. Counter has increased pretty easy. I couldn't believe that it is a 84th day without MB and february + march have been MB free this year. I get strong morning woods every morning, and I still have to use willpower to abstain despite it is getting easier every week. Well it would be correct to say now - with every month as I can't see much difference between weeks now. But it is easier than it was last month.
It is very sad that I haven't got any WD yet. Perhaps I am one of those who do not get them. Simply. Well I've had few when I was 16yo, but I have been MB'ng since age 8 I think. As there has been no WD yet, abstaining starts to feel useless effort. It is great of course to know that I MB'd last time on 10th January, but that is all. I don't know for how long I am willing to abstain. 90 days for sure. Perhaps 100 days. or even just to have MB free April as well. I am sure I am willng to abstain more if I get WD. But it could never happen. Chances to have a WD fade with every passing week. If I abstained a year and got no WD, what are the chances to get one soon? Very slim I think. It points that I am the one who won't never get them again.

[Mario777]

DAY 85